A little bit nervous
So last night J and I were in bed, talking, and he said he is now ready to be open to being in another triad. I was super excited since I have been waiting for this for a while now, but I knew he needed to take his time and deal with whatever it was that he needed to deal with from our last triad. So while I am super excited, I am also kind of nervous. I don’t remember feeling this nervous the last time at just the thought of having someone in our life/marriage. I’m not even completely sure what I am nervous about. I mean I guess I am kind of nervous about dating again in general. I have bad rejection issues, so it kind of keeps me from wanting to put myself out there. I know this is the right lifestyle for J and I, so I just need to get out of my own head.
My apartment is finally done being remodeled and we get to move in tomorrow!!! It is so nice to be back in the same town as my family and friends. I thought it would be so nice to get away from everyone, but then you realize that some times it is nice to have your family and friends around. It was so hard to go on dates when we lived in Sac. We didn’t know anyone we would allow to watch our precious Bella. Now we have so many more chances to go on dates and be (for a lack of better words) a dating married couple.