A little bit nervous
So last night J and I were in bed, talking, and he said he is now ready to be open to being in another triad. I was super excited since I have been waiting for this for a while now, but I knew he needed to take his time and deal with whatever it was that he needed to deal with from our last triad. So while I am super excited, I am also kind of nervous. I don’t remember feeling this nervous the last time at just the thought of having someone in our life/marriage. I’m not even completely sure what I am nervous about. I mean I guess I am kind of nervous about dating again in general. I have bad rejection issues, so it kind of keeps me from wanting to put myself out there. I know this is the right lifestyle for J and I, so I just need to get out of my own head.